Thursday, December 3, 2015

Suffer Now.

Suffer now, Tea. Suffer now, so this pain makes sense when it matters most.

Right now. At this exact moment. I'm feeling beaten down.

Have I told you that this half marathon is the first half marathon that I've trained for with Liz as my coach?

For 10 years, I pretty much did the same old, same old half marathon training. Guess what? I got the same old, same old results. A small pr here, a small one there, but always within a minute or two of each other.

My half marathon PR is 2:18. Let that sink in. When most women in my age group are running sub 2 hours, I'm running a 2:18. Frustrated doesn't even begin to cover it.

I've always believed that I was faster than my times showed. WHAT was WRONG with me?

When we started my half training, I had no idea what I was in for. With Liz, it's better that way.

More intensity, less distance. It makes sense. I understand why. But I doubt myself.
I do the workouts, trusting the system. I know that what I've done in the past hasn't worked, but can I trust myself to put together the race that want? Dammit. The race that I f*cking deserve? Haven't I waited long enough?

I'm busting my ass every damn day. I am stronger, faster, leaner than I have ever been in my life.

I'll just do what I do best.

Hammer out workouts and hope I can put it all together when it matters most.