Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Holding my shit together

At this writing, I'm tired.

But, I survived the Easter rush.

I lost it a few times. For the most part, I HELD MY SHIT TOGETHER. This was our busiest Easter ever, so that is QUITE the accomplishment.

I got my training done. There were days that I really struggled. Now, it's over. Life can go back to normal.

Getting through this season meant that I had to do things that I didn't want to do. I didn't WANT to skip masters. I messed up my eating for a few days (not bringing enough to eat and losing more weight and sacrificing one run because of it).

I'm quite pleased with myself. It's shown me that unless things change at work (which we are working on), an early season 70.3 is probably NOT a good idea. Which means, that it's not likely I'll get do the Boulder 70.3 next year (which was on my to do list). We posted a few jobs today. It really comes down to who and how many people we have on staff next year. We were really understaffed this year. Believe it or not, it's hard to staff a young company. It's too much risk for some people. For others, they can't work in an environment where everyone does a little bit of everything. They prefer a very structured job description. We're not to that point.

But back to MOI.

I can see clearly now. Even though, I'm in a big training week.....I can see where this training train is taking me: To the land of soreness, muchas hunger and PRs.

In two weeks, ON my HALF birthday (which is pretty cool in itself), I have a 5 mile race! You know. The same one I've been doing FORev. Because of that, it's a great barometer for me.

I've also done a lot of thinking lately about my future with triathlon and where I go with it after this year.

No. I'm not getting ahead of myself. I've spent a lot of time training by myself these past few weeks.

This year, I get to decide if the 70.3 is for me. I get to decide if I like it. I get to decide if I want to go further. I get to decide if I prefer the shorter distances.

It's part of a plan that I'd put in place a few years back, but the plan has been changing over time.

I have to admit that I got a little melancholy when I started thinking about doing a full and how I was supposed to do it with a special friend. It's a little sad. It's great to have friends supporting me, but it's something special to do a race with another person or a group. I'm not really interested in triathlon forums. Believe it or not, I don't even have a login for Slowtwitch.

Still a full ironman is in the distance a bit, if at all. I have to go through this race season first.

Meanwhile this year, I have a number of races. Races that I have to define my strategy. I am going to have some personal challenges that I need to deal with, and I constantly go back and forth with how to deal with it. Maybe there will be enough distractions that I don't have to deal with them.

Until then, I'm hoping to get caught up on some much needed sleep this weekend and get ready for my race in 10 days.

And hopefully, have a little more interesting blog posts once know the trash talking, self deprecating posts that seem to define my racing season.